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Well well well.. Here we are again. A text based entery by Valkyria. And we all know what that means, dont we? That shes "depressed" and / or has something to complain about.
(This is a worning to readers who just gonna complain on people who cplains, so stop reading!)

So, hosw my life going?
Well.. I have a job some days in betwean, wich gives me enough pocetmoney. I just work a few days a month, and the rest of the time I'm of. I have a home, my parents likes that im stillliving here, adn I dont have to pay them. They sometimes even help me when I need expensive clohting. (Specially if the cloths ar not black). And I also has someone who loves me, and who I love back.
The only thing I dont have is someone to be close to. No friends, and my love lives in the netherlands.
This is totaly driving me insane! I cant sleep at night, i cant think and im feeling sick all the time. I so dont know what to do about it. it feels like my heart is braking, and that eveythign i do to make things better only make things wors.
im trying to be good to him, but it feels like the only thing im doing is to hurt me. im losing faith in that this is realy ment to be, even if i know taht i realy cant live without him. if i didnt have him, what then wold there be left to live for in this world?

Why o why?
What misstakes am i making?
Some one please help me..