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I really don't like boys right now, now I know what my friend means when she says "I hate boys"...because at the moment I do...at this point I'm extremely happy being single because I'm so ******** pissed nothing at this point would change my mind...I'm gonna kill something...or someone...it depends...for once I like to meet a guy whose mature enough not to be a clingy, drama king...and maybe has some life left in him...but NOOO...lady luck is such a b***h to me... evil

At this point I KNOW I was right for breaking up with my ex because if I was wrong, I wouldn't be in such a foul mood right now...each day that goes by the pain fades, and anger grows...I feel like my old self again...I feel that my heart has become stronger...I feel emtionless, like if someone dies, I won't cry...just like at my Grandmothers funeral...I loved her more than anything...and I didn't cry, because I knew she knew it was her time to go...she waited for us to say our goodbyes...and we did...but that is in the past...

I'm the kind of person who usually puts the past behind me...unless the past keeps looming over me, like a bad dream...

I do the best I can for myself, I never put myself first and for that I've made myself emotionally suffer because I never thought of my own well being...well I finally decided that I need to get some me time...

I don't want to remember this...I need to wake up from this living nightmare I've found myself in...I need to get out...