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To say I ******** up is an extreme understatement. Not just ******** up, but really just did something utterly stupid and clumsy. She was more than right about it, I didn't even need to think too long to realize that. It's not my job to make her wise to the world, I'm not a damn counselor. It's my job to protect her from it, keep it from harming her any more than it already has. And a damn horrible job I've been doing. I need to start thinking now, I've got something that I actually care about now and I'm ******** up with her already. It's true what they say. Disappointment is the worst feeling one can feel. And I feel it in loads for myself for not being the best I could be for her. It's about damn time I start thinking now, or otherwise, I'm not sure how patient she could be with my idiocy.