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ok to start off with i think you need to know about me. im 14 my parents are still together.my mom is going back to collage at UT.thats where i started this profile. i have 3 siblings. 2 brothers and 1 sister all older. my oldest brother is married with 3 kids. my sister is devorced with 3 girls my age. and my other brother is in the marines crying i go to high school where i am one of only like 6 goth/emo kids. i get strange looks every day. even before i turned to the darkside i was never popular.so i dont mind.the only way i am every even happy is when those around me are happy.so in the world we live in im constantly depressed. anyway apparently being a goth is a novility in my school because i have like 6 guys wanting to date me. an emo,football player,geek,UT fan,funny guy, and 2 man whores. no matter what i do some one is going to be upset. so what can i do? i have prevouilsy dated the emo,geek,ut fan, and one man whore.i still like them all but im in love with my best guy friend, who wont even talk to me because my bff told him i cut out of angish for him (which i do) now his solution is to ignore me (smart right?) i feel guilty because i have a 4.0 gpa and all my friends are failing atleast 1 class.i have been mulling out suicide to solve it all. WHAT SHOULD I DO?????