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I'm so sick
Not to sound sterotypical, but I'm so f-ing..I don't even know. I feel like screaming or exploded or sobbing. It's so hard. To be cheerful on the outside and suffering on the inside. Watching and hearing the ventures of my friends and be happy and dealing with their selfish needs. When I want them to notice they don't. When will it turn around. I lost my best friend. Who was a cat. But she listened. She didn't have her own needs. I could sit with her all day holding her. No words were needed, she wouldn't understand them anyway. They say your true character shows when no one's looking. In that case I'm a poser. I'm not a cheerful, outgoing person. I'm sad, frustrating, scared, shy. In gerenl I'm happy, and I should be, my parents are doing good. I'm happy at times. But there is just something in the way. When I'm not forced to play at my charades, I can be seen staring off into space, Want to know what I'm thinking about? I'm singing, or trying to find the circut in my head that's gone haywire. Why am I so different from my peppy, happy, selfish friends? I supose I'm not always like this there are freunent times when I'm very happy and peppy, but when I'm sad, I'm very sad it's quite overwhelming. I just needed to talk to someone since there is no one to talk to now. Not out there. Thanks for reading to the end. I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense, I'm sorry if your bored, I'm sorry if I condridit myself, I'm sorry for my spelling, I'm sorry for complaning. I just needed to rant and share.
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