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idk for some reason these days im always frustrated. i feel slowly that all this frustration is piling up and that one day im gonna explode in rage. i try to act cool and keep my emotions in check but i just feel that im just gonna explode. so much rage and jealousy and sadness are in my heart yet i have to keep it locked inside. almost everyday i put on a mask of hyperness and happiness but on the inside my heart is in turmoil. i dont even know why i write in this thing. the only ppl that i want to read this wont read it anyway so whats the point. i need to control my emotions better......or maybe others need to control their emotions and just let it go. everybodys giving me signs and doing things but i dont understand them. and ppl keep saying stuff that i dont know if their the truth or if their just messing with my emotions. i just dont know anymore......