My Grandfather's wake tomorrow and the Funeral Mass and the brunch after that.
I don't know if I can do it.
I broke down today durring nineth period, and I cried in the bathroom for like 10 minutes.
Then I wrote a really shitty poem rather than classwork.
And then on the late bus, I broke down again and cried all over Yami.
And then she came over and I cried all over her more.
I can't do this, I really don't think I can.
I want my Papa back. I want him back and happy and healthy.
And I want to tell him all the things I never did when he was alive.
Like how much I really do love him.
And how much I liked his hair, I don't know why, I just did.
And how safe I always felt at their house before he and my Grandma got sick.
And how much I miss eating dinner with them all the time.
And how bad I feel for not visiting as much as I should have.
And how bad I feel for not telling him how great of a person he is.
Sorry about this ramble. I just needed to get this out. :/ :[
I don't know if I can do it.
I broke down today durring nineth period, and I cried in the bathroom for like 10 minutes.
Then I wrote a really shitty poem rather than classwork.
And then on the late bus, I broke down again and cried all over Yami.
And then she came over and I cried all over her more.
I can't do this, I really don't think I can.
I want my Papa back. I want him back and happy and healthy.
And I want to tell him all the things I never did when he was alive.
Like how much I really do love him.
And how much I liked his hair, I don't know why, I just did.
And how safe I always felt at their house before he and my Grandma got sick.
And how much I miss eating dinner with them all the time.
And how bad I feel for not visiting as much as I should have.
And how bad I feel for not telling him how great of a person he is.
Sorry about this ramble. I just needed to get this out. :/ :[
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