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Always smiling
Always laughing
I’m there
I’m a friend
I let you cry on my shoulder
I listen and I hold you and I let you cry
You cry, you cry, you cry
And I listen and I hold you and I let you cry
You apologize
But hey what are friends for
You thank me
But hey what are friends for
You’re my best friend, you’re always here for me thank you
But hey what are friends for
You say it again and again
I love you, you say
You’re the best, you say
I couldn’t do it without you, you say
You say, you say, you say
Then you walk away
You walk away you don’t look back
You don’t look back
Look back
Look back
Please look back!!!
Can’t you see I’m hurting?
I’m crying
I’m SCREAMING!!!
Let me lean on you
I need to lean on you
Where are you?
Why did you walk out?
You thanked me
You turned and you left
You never asked
Are you all right?
Is everything okay?
What’s wrong?
Anything
You don’t ask anything
You don’t look
Can’t you see me?
Can’t you hear me?
My mind is screaming and you can’t hear me
Do you know what is going on in here?
What my mind is screaming
I see myself killing
Killing
Over and over
Killing
In my mind I’m a serial killer
I’m a serial killer
There is a body hanging in the basement
A body floating in the bathtub
A body bled out on the floor
A body collapsed next to the an empty bottle
A body splattered on the street
I’m a serial killer
But it’s always the same face
The same face
The same face
My face
I see my face
I’m a serial killer
I’ve killed myself a thousand times
Does that make me suicidal?
ASK ME!!!
I’m not the perfect person
I cry but you can’t see me
I can’t let you see me
I’m not strong enough
You’re the strong one
You can cry
Help me cry
Show me how to cry
So I can be strong like you
But you can’t hear me
You’ve already walked away thinking
I’m glad she’s my friend
I’m left behind thinking
I’m horrible for hating my friend
For hating you because you’re not here
I hate myself for hating you
I’m not perfect
I’m the worst person
The worst
Help me
Help me
Help me
I’m asking
I’m begging
Help me
Help me
Help me