I've just been feeling so low lately. Yesterday at work I worked from 6-4 something and for the next three days most of the parties focuses on my department, meaning I'm not going to get a lick of help for a 300 people party for three days straight except for Wednesday which I'm not working but I have to prepare for despite the fact that no one else has anything to do except for their regular things.
But for the last few days I'm just been feeling so low and down. It doesn't help that so many people come to me to tell me about their troubles, it doesn't help that I even go out of my way to ask them how they are and try to help to cheer them up. But once I'm down and all I'm avoided as if I have a plague.
Knowing this annoys me to no end. It makes me angry so I snap at people, if they want to avoid me then they should leave me alone too right? I hate to feel that way or think that way, but there are so many times that I've set my problems aside to listen and comfort someone else. I guess this journal is the only thing I really have to let anything out.
But today it was horrible. To add onto my low feelings once I got home from work I noticed that the room was spinning, and I couldn't walk without crashing into the wall. I managed to grab a bucket and lay down, but even then I could feel the room spinning, just lifting my head from my pillow made my head spin and my stomach turn. After a half hour I could barely lift it. I half laughed, that would be the cherry at the end of my shitty week, dieing or something close to it. As sad as it sounds right about now I'd welcome it.
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