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I feel like an idiot..Nass is leaving for months, and I'm crying my eyes out. I already miss him like hell..god I hate this..I just need to get away..how could I let myself get so attached..? God why can't I just sleep the rest of my life away? I'd imagine it'd be better..I mean afterall what happens in the end? Once again tears fall. I write. My heart closes. The end. I can't help feel it's worth it though..Lately everything has gotten worse, much worse.. I need to close back up and keep my feelings inside like before. It seemed better that way..atleast the illusion of satisfaction was mine..I'm droping weight like crazy..I'm down to 98 now..I don't want to eat..I don't want to sleep..I don't want to have to cry myself to the point my head aches every time I open my eyes. I think I may just leave gaia for some time soon..I don't know..start new something. I need to get away..I need to stop crying..
 angel08 · Wed Nov 03, 2004 @ 06:13am · 2 Comments |
