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i guess i can sit here and act like everything is ok, even though its not...it seems like my world is just empty and weak. or atleast i feel that way...i'm just really hurt, some ppl know that they have and others dont know...one person doesn't know and i'd prefer it stayed that way...but i confided to her b/f bout the hurt that she did cause...stupid is me. i wish i hadnt, i dont want him to feel guilty...then there is one who i think is aware that she is hurting me and just doesnt care and there is another who is very close that has hurt me dearly...he as aware of it...and he sits there and says that "he didnt want to break anyones heart." yet i, the one he says matters the most to him, ended up broken hearted...if i matter so much...then why did he do that?i wish i knew... but i guess thats life, weither or not i like it and i guess life goes on....im just glad i had friends to see me through. if not i dont think id be sitting here typing this...so the ppl who dont care wont read this...but i feel better getting this out of my head...