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So, after a painful breakup with my first real true love, i had gone into a state of depression i hadn't been in since my sister died.when i was 8.
this happened just this past Saturday, and i was pretty down.
But after spending about 150 bucks on booze with Jayden, and getting smashed as all hell, i feel pretty goo about the whole thing.
but damn if i didn't feel like crap this morning. lol
what scared me, is it happened just after i got my clearance on the pyromania issue i had been battling since 2000, and i had the serious urge to burn down the whole city.
guess it was a good thing Jayden had my lighter, and i can't drive, and the city is about 50 bajillion miles walking.
All things considered, i feel pretty good.
Don't exactly know if I'm ready for a new relationship, but...that's all dependent on if i feel that....spark, for lack of a better, non fire related word...,that i had with Melissa...or Minty, as we all called her in middle school.
Sometimes i wondered if it would even work with over a thousand miles between us...guess i was right.
Okay, i'm tored, and should get to sleep. Testing tomorrow, and...oh...wait..that's tuesday...but i'm tired, and no one interesting is on save for a few people, either on here, or Myspace(which i just got back up, and have yet to re-establish my friends list which had exceeded 500 people. and that's just the actual people. no bands.
meh.
night guys.



~Zexi out~