I find myself at time as open as a book
and in a fleeting moment a sealed cage
These thing make me a new creation
When I lay open like a book, it's faced as a difficulty, because I'm vulnerable
but yet I trust someone will see and understand my pain, my joy, my heart,
the words that I speak will flow through their head like music notes,
I'd like to release myself sometimes, I'd want to be free, I'd want for everyone for once to know more then just what I'd want to tell them, and the personality and human I built for them to see. Maybe find away to release it before the pain engulfs my body
I wish for this desperately that it makes me defeat-able at times
Everything I can say to someone could turn against me if said to the wrong person
but when finding the write person to say it to the pain fades and your compassionate to understanding, you have relief through your body, you know there's someone to understand you, the only thing that might worry me sick is if they will speak your pain and secrets to someone else. or if they even care,
I've thought about that how many people in the world are there that aren't to busy focusing on themselves to talk about how someone else is feeling for once
I guess this book will have to close and become a sealed cage
Sealed cage most people are a sealed cage ,I know I'm one of them, trying to be an open book, but my paranoia doesn't let me, It frightens me, everything you could say to someone could be used against you, you'll be destroyed under your weak sense of judgment, your secrets should remain hidden from the world
don't let them know you suffer or they'll find away to to tear you down
Don't let them break you because it will only prove your that much weaker
a strong mind and trusting only one, only yourself, no one will care more about you then yourself, it's all there in the personality of humans, can you trust the person who has been your closest friend not to turn on you someday?
Can you trust them not to avenge themselves on your weakness that you've shared?
It's not so simple telling the truth of what lies deep, soon we prefer our pain and anger then freedom which helps combine an idea of a new creation
Not many people are like this I know that I am able to be like this,
but there is not many people who combine a positive and a negative to create a new there sense of judgment comes from the thought of both ideas wanting and understanding they know there is people who need them out there, and even though they can not tell there pain so well they will understand more then most people would ever know. keeping an open mind from clouded judgment weakness, paranoia and cruelty, never sharing there anger with the person but letting them know what is best done,
I know I've become a stronger person and even if I can't find some one to take an interest on what hurts me I want to be there for them just so they won't have to feel this tormenting pain that hold me down , since through this I have become more open minded, I want to show others that there is more to what meets the eye, I want them to know that there are many roads to take
that this world isn't as bad as it seem,
because I was able to find out my pain by myself and appreciate the world through new eyes I'd like to do that for those who suffer
Artistic Repertoire · Sat Mar 01, 2008 @ 08:46am · 0 Comments
