Im really confused right now. I am stcuk between fantasy and reality. Im not one to judge but sometimes i wonder if love is true. i think its made up. nothing can prove that love is there. i mean im telling people my true feelings other wise i would be screwed. im stuck in between friends and my personal life. i want to know if im worth his love . but sometimes i wonder... things arent adding up. i feel confused and i cant deal with it. nothing is right. friends that arent here, or cant talk to...i run away from the ones i fall for but i dont want to... something is wrong... i have been really sensitive lately and i need to talk to some one about something and i dont know how to...i really need my boyfriend right now but hes not here and i bont know what to do about the situation at school and it is buging me that my bf and i are bing forced to kiss and i want this to end. im not ready for this. i need to get m prioritees straight and fast. i dont know what the hell i want to do and i made a big mistake of listening to a couple of my friends to break up with someone but i should have broke up with them soonerand i wouldnt have gotten as hurt as i did....that person doesnt even know i exsists so i guess it worked out for the best if you think about it.....i really need to think for a while and talk to joey and see whats up later...