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Mommy
It's so hard.
It's so hard, to be your daughter.
I can't bare it, at times.
You can't never be pleased.
No matter how much I try.
You're breaking me, bit by bit.
I'm lost, I can't be what you want.
I want to be what you want.
But that would be so stupid.
Truthfully, I need to be accepted by you.
My mother, I love you.
I love you, but I am scared of you.
You hurt me so many times.
That I forgot how to trust you.
We were once so close.
Til you gain so many expectations from me.
That I could not achive.
You wanted someone that did not exist in your life.
Mommy, please accept me for who I am.
I love you, but I can only say it from afar.
But despite what you did to me.
I can still care.
Remember when I'd saved you?
That person was inflicking pain to you.
I stood out, I yelled.
In the end I got hurt, by the person.
And by you.
My mind is covered by mist.
Everything is so blurry.
That I think I hate you, but no matter what I still love you.
But it's so painful to keep on loving you.
My love for you is like a comsuming fire.
I feel my heart burning.
Mommy?
Why do you always get mad at me?
When I make mistakes, when I'm "me".
Do you hate me so?
Is it all the mistakes, I've done?
Is it the fact, that I can't seem to learn from my mistakes?
When I cry, why do you hurt me more?
When I am sad, you beat me down.
Why? Why? Why mom?
When I tell you the truth, why do you run away from me?
When we get into an argument, why don't you back down?
Why do you always have to win.
I try my hardest to make you happy.
But I can't, because you are not making yourself happy.
You get mad at me, for many things.
I'm scared, I'm so scared.
I might become like you.
I don't want to, I don't want to.
I'm scared that if I have a child.
I might do the same.
I'm so scared, I don't know what to do.
I don't want to be like you, mommy.
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