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I thought that's all I wanted. Someone to really like me. Then I hear them say it, and I freak. Again. Twice now. Geez, I'm scared of...not commitment....but having a boyfriend. Of being hurt. I don't know. I hate it. Don't want to be here no more.
I guess I'm not one of those girls that go from guy to guy. I'm the girl that...just wants to be friends. Good friends, just not boyfriend/girlfriend. Doing everything friends would do, hang out, go see movies, go to dances, but not be tied down I guess that's what I want.
Also, what would my parents think? They always make a big thing when I talk about a guy, so what would they say if I ever had a boyfriend? I don't think I'm ready for one yet. But I really like him, not love, not yet. Just like. Really good friends. Like Raven and Robin from Teen Titans, or Kim and Ron from Kim Possible.
I guess that's it. Weird really. So emotionally I'm not ready for a boyfriend, but I want to be good friends. But good friends best friends, could still do what boyfriends and girlfriends do, without the last line. So I don't get it why he is sad when I say it. The only thing that is different is that we won't say "This is my boyfriend/girlfriend" more of a "This is a really good friend of mine". And we're not tied down.
Sorry if I ever hurt him then.