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Here i am wondering who my friends are and wondering where i am going in life. I want to be working with kids and /or cooking . i do adore both things. At times it seems that no one cares about me. i have gotten made fun of because i have a hearing aid and i think its not fair that people have to make fun of me for that. I just want people to understand that behind me having a hearing aid and me begin shy emotional and sensitive i am one of the sweetest people you will ever meet if u give me a chance and get to know me. I have had friends come and go and its really hard when people dont want to get a chance to know someone without even judging them. My family says they love me and i never know if its really true because i never see them like i used too see my moms family before she died before i was 6. Things were so much easier before i became a teenager . Living without a mom and friends that were not always there made it hard for me to succeed in life,but i got help from my guidance counselor at my high school and going through so many rough times with guys breaking up with me or just guys being jerks like always too me. I only had help of like maybe 2 or 3 people around my age to help me get through. I felt lonely knowing if i was ever gonna find love till the end of my senior year, because more then half of the guys i dated taught me that i can be better then them and that they never really loved me or anything.
When my senior year was almost over, i found the love of my life and i am so happy that he is in my life. I have the most wonderful boyfriend ever to me and i love him so much. I also know that I have met two of my best friends this year and there like sisters too me and they know who they are. I just want some friends who are gonna except me for me and not make fun of me because I'm sick of it.

Thanks for reading my journal 3nodding