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I admit that I'm not perfect. I don't make all the right choices. But I try, ya know? I try so hard to keep myself up and my pain down. But even one, small, simple mistake, can crush my soul like nothing...
I fell for a guy that I thought loved me. And I acted so much more...different, just so he could love me more...And then...I get so confused. So confused with him, my friends and everyone else around me. I let myself change when I was with him and then..poof. I see a side of me I didn't want to see...ever. And now I feel...I don't know...shame. A lot of shame. And the mistake was so simple. So ******** simple. I allowed myself to think something I knew wasn't there. I convinced myself that everything was going to be alright. But it's not. Not for a long time. I just...can't believe how simple it is...to make one tiny little mistake and then...poof. My life is just going up in the flames...and it's my fault. Not his, not my friends, not my family. No one but me. And you know what? I'm gonna fix it. Odds are by time my friends read this I'll be smile again and I won't talk about it. Not now, not ever...well..I gotta go...Don't make simple mistakes..no matter how small.