*sigh* It's weird this week my g.f. er ex... or whatever found out she had feelings for my best friend. Monday, i found this out.....after that i got a lot of people who would talk to me about it, and make me feel like i should be pissed off about it. The only reason i wasn't was because of her..... and plus it was suppossed to be a date that's going on today for her to find out if she really loves him, or not... and if yes pick between him and me. Well, after a few days from hearing all theese people talk like i should be pissed off, i flipped out and got paranoid, and was talking to her in a way like i wasn't comfortable with it at all, and i was saying things about my friends past. After that, it all fell apart.... she told my friend, and after awhile i got into an argument with him.... and then there was a lot of stuff going on, and then i was left with a choice... either she gets him, or she gets noone... which was made perfectly clear.
So, seeing how i wanted her happy, i told her to date my friend then... because if she was unhappy because of me.. i would regret it for basically the rest of my life. Long story short, ever since then my friend has unintentionally continued saying all this stuff to remind me of her, and the fact he is dating her. After talking to him about it, he decided there was no way he could keep from talking about her. The funny part is, When he was going through a tough time, i wouldn't utter more than a peep about how cool the whole thing was because unlike him, i didn't need to make it all public. Another thing is that I'm not mad at him... im irritated that he doesn't even try for one of his best friends, especially one that he knows is on the brink of probabbly going insane or something.
Either way, this is all making me go nuts....all i can hope for is that she finds she doesn't love him today, and comes back to me or something...... *sigh* i can only sit and wait and pray.
PheonixFlare Community Member 
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