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you know, i realized something about myself as i was randomly typing my research paper (i kinda daze off, sometimes..ok, a lot) and i was thinkin about dating.

I use to think i was only hypocritical about hating hypocrites. but who isn't hypocritical about that. with me, i can over generalize, but i can take a joke, and other people should learn to take one, too. also, they need to learn to be responsible, respectful, not rude...but that's for another entry. back to my main point.

ok, so, i'm in school and all that (grade not needed, i've been this way since...earlier grades mrgreen ) and i was thinking how when i was little, i told myself i wasn't going to date unless i could seriously see myself marrying this person (i didn't like to waste time) and to this day, i've honored that (i have currently never had a boyfriend, and frankly, i don't mind in the LEAST) but what i realized is that when guys ask me out, i get really distracted with my school work which comes first to me (come ooonnnnn valedvictorian!) ok, maybe not Val but maybe...MAYBE sal if someone dies or transfers mrgreen . that was not a death threat. for anyone who knows guidance counsleors. i've had enough bad experiences with them. but again, that's for another entry.

so i figured that i didnt' want to have a serious boyfriend in highschool adn that i just wanted to him to basically be a friend so we coul dhave fun together. this, in my point, was being hypocritical. and possibly why i've never dated anyone.

how can i expect to have a serious relationchip that i want to last while at the same time have it be light hearted enough not to get int he way with school? my solution? i'm just gonna become a nun.

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just kidding. but i think i'll stay away from dating for a while mroe anyhow. besides, why should i settle? plus, i see the drama that guys bring to a group of friends. and i hate drama. with a passion. that must die. and go to hell. ok, i'm done.