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I just had the weirdest (well, not totally, but close) thing happen to me today. AGAIN. It happened twice, which is why I'm typing this. You know mean Sarah that I talk about sometimes (I have two Sarahs. Once I called them Sarah the Good and The Wicked Sarah of the West...) Well, at least Anex does. Anyways, mean Sarah actually thinks normal thoughts! Like, I was sitting on the bus, and apparently she didn't want to walk to the middle of the bus, so she sat by me (second time this happened. WEIRD.) But anyways, I was having one of those few times (end of second block to the bus, wich is around two or three hours) where you just wanted everyone who was, like, oblivious to the world's problems to just SHUT UP AND DIE. A girl had left my second block because her dad died of cancer, and we did cards for the last twenty minutes. Well, a few of us did, anyway. The problem was, we really didn't know anything about her. All we knew is that she was one of the two juniors in our class. While I was standing there looking at my card, I really didn't know what to write. I had ideas, sure, but they all seemed too light of a subject. "Sorry for your loss..." wow, so you, like lost something? Like your ipod? "Feel better soon..." so now they're sick? And, being the stupid person I am, I couldn't write that kind of stuff that the others were doing. Not to mention I kept thinking of my grandma's wake a year ago, where about NONE of those things would cheer me up (my great friend Anex, here, got out of school for about an hour to visit me. She found me with my face probably red and puffy from crying about two hours. Seriously, you were the only one that brightened that day.) So, I guess I decided, I would write crap. Total crap. "I was thinking of something to say for this... But no words can express the feeling of losing something. Best Wishes, Emily" I can't imagine that my card will help any better than the others. Actually, mine might make her more sad. But after I turned mine in, I felt mellowed out from my normally happy mood, and the guys behind me were joking about something. Joking. Someone's dad just DIED, and you're laughing? Well, it went downhill from there. I think I got mad at one of them after leaving the classroom, I went to sewing. Today, everyone was apparently in a happy moodd and didn't feel like working, so they happily chatted away while I was trying to concentrate on my skirt so I could get out my negative energy somehow. Michael (yes, we have a straight guy who probably only joined for the girls in our class) played our new warm-up song in dance on the computer. We just started doing modern, and the song just really seems to focus your energy for some reason. Well, he also freezes the computer halfway through the song somehow (I was done on my skirt by this time, and we had a sub today, okay?) The computer just WOULDN'T WORK, and I got into a darker mood. Then it was time to get on the bus, where I just decided to sit on the bus and listen to a sad and depressing song on my ipod, and there Sarah is, plopping down next to me. Great. Well, we start talking (she broke up with her bf yesterday because his friends said bs about stuff she believed in and he just laughed.) and we both are in bad moods. She was also in the class where the girl left, and also made a card. We talked about depressing subjects for about twenty minutes, and the conversation got lighter until she left, and I wasn't really sad anymore. Woah. Trust me, this was a deep conversation, and Sarah made me feel better? I think she was changed for the better.

(Sorry I got off topic in the middle. I just got into my depressing mood again and it flowed.)