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How can I feel this way?
What are the words I'm searching for?
What are you going to say?
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For some weird reason, I feel like I somehow let go a short fused, timed, huge, mental--- BOMB
And now I sit back, awaiting for the time to tick away. I want to stop whatever it is,

But what's the use?

All I'm going to end up doing is faking a smile, letting another day go by, watching the aftermath--- BLOW UP.

GAH!
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Will you sit back and watch me fade?
Could you help me?
Or feast upon my rotting flesh?
Are you going to cut my sewn mouth open?

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On a little lighter note:

My date went well. Although I had a totally different ending come to my mind, I couldn't make my mouth or my body say or do what I had running through my brain is that normal for someone? I mean. Don't get me wrong. I REALLY REALLLY REALLY like Jacob, maybe even love him, but for some reason, I can't get my thoughts verbalized or physically happen.

crying I'm a wreck

Oh well

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I stare at you
You stare me back
I feel your skin
Hard and black

I take a second glance
Only to find
That the best of friends
are in my Mind

Hello Reflection
Of my former self
I moved on
Far away from you hateful stare.