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Time and time again
you have told me you were my friend
You looked right into my eyes
said you loved me
But it was all lies

Time and time again
I would hold you when you cried
and I would fight for you until I died
And I would do anything to make you happy
but that was long ago

Time and time again
You would smile at me and kiss my lips
You would run your hands over my hips
You would lick the soft spot between my ears
But you were just horny

Time and time again
I said no
stop
I don't want to go to far right now
I want it to be planned
be special
some how.

I would almost give in from time to time
but in the end I was stronger then I looked
smarter then I spoke
wiser then you wanted a 16-17 year-old girl to be
So you left

Time and time again
I thought it was my fault
That I wasn't good enough
that I was too ugly
to stupid
to fat and not perfect for you

Time and time again
I pure my heart and soul
trying to figure out what went wrong
How could I let you go?
My best friend
My family
My lover
The only person I would allow to touch me
in that way lovers touch
the only person I would kiss with passion
the one who I would tell my deep srecerts and hopes
The only person I trusted with my body, mind and soul
How could I let you go?

Some called me a fool
that you were to fine to just let leave
That you were the only one for me
They were helping you

Some called me dumb
that I needed you
other wise I would become numb
and dead inside
They were wanting you

Others who
could count their fingers and tie their shoes
told me that it was the best choice I ever made

Time and time again
I was your slave
but now I'm saved
And I'm waiting for someone better
and new