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Second Blood

I should have known better
than to open my mouth,
I should have used my words with care.
but so much for words,
For they do not change their minds,
minds for love, love for me...

Maybe I don't want their love,
maybe for once I want hate in place of love
But they will not cease?they will not stop.
I want inner peace.forever
But my sickness keeps coming back,
will this ever end?
Eternal suffering in this living Hell
but this is not Hell for people here smile and worry.
About me.

I should have learned by now,
you can't trust your own
My blood or anyone elses.
I don't know weather to hate, or thank...
For my mind is blurred in confused feelings,
tied in knots I can't brake loose
Though I have tried so hard

I feel like crying but I am emotionless,
and even more so as my sickness grows.
No more love from you,
it only brings me more pain...more sickness...
No more pain.

I hate myself,
as I hate them for loving me
Me with open arms,
and a once warm heart,but no more.
It has turned cold and gray

But my heart has one spark for you,
the only spark that will be warm
The spark just for you.
the warmth that only you can give me.
The spark that others would fear from me.

But I don't want to care what they say,
but my heart cares for them too much.
Just like it cares for you.
and it always will.no matter what they say or do.
My love is for you.

You are there for me when they take me,
and they brake me apart,for loving.
For using my love to love you.
but my love has only stained my face,
With tears...a persons second blood

The blood of love...
my blood runs for you.

crying ~Riyoren Daro~ heart