So, Ive been doing ALOT of thinking.....
Thinking about my future, my life right now, Just evrything.
in the past ehh..month? I've learned that You cant trust people with something so fragile so easy, Ive learned that you have one life, thats it only one. why not make the best of it? Yea, latley ive been pretty down in the dumps..But im regaining myself because i know im better than that.
This year starts off my Senior year. As of right now i have no idea whats going on in my life. i should be going to KHS or Northwestern But now my gma is saying maby KHS... school starts in 2 weeks and i have no idea what im doing. Im so unprepared for everything..
So all of this stuff (theres more than what i said in here) made me think, made me have goals. Latley ive been tryin to make myself feel better by swimming and being active also ive been readin the chicken soup Book.. I feel so great and so happy. although still part of me is sad.. but sometimes you just cant help that.
and i've been spendin time with my family alot more. I feel much better as a person. Like im finally doing things for me and not what others want. Yea i miss my friends, adn yea i miss having a BF.. but still the feeling i have now is wayy better. I learned to be equal spend as much time with family as i do with my friends and as for boys go....
Im probably gonna be single for awhile. Right now i just want a best friend, a guy i can talk to about ANYTHING..
maby one day i'll find the "right" one. i mean hey, im only 17.
you know what i look for in a guy tho?
I really want someone whos funny, someone to make me laugh no matter what mood im in, Someone who will laugh at my jokes, even tho they may not be funny. Someone who i can totally be myself around and do fun goofy crazy things with, Some who i could walk around the park and take silly pictures with, Someone who i could talk to for hours on the phone and still have so much to say, Someone who will actually listen to what i have to say and give me the best advice he can.. and sometimes i wouldnt want advice at all just someone to hug me and from that hug i can feel he really loves me. Someone to give me sweet kisses no matter where we're at or who we're around, Someone whos honest with me and tells me the truth no matter how much he knows it could hurt me, but then do the best he could to make up for it, Someone who has feelings and is sweet, who loves me for me no matter what. Someone who could not only be my friend but be my best friend.. Someone to have many memories with ......
im just stuck here waiting for now...But im fine with that.
All i have left to say is Love your life because its the only one you got <3
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