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I've come to realize something today...I still have huge feelings for my ex-lover. But now it's too late to try and talk to him, because it seems that he's blocked me out of his mind...like I never existed. I haven't said or done anything that would be deserving of that kind of punishment, so I just don't know what his deal is. I mean even if I tell him that I still love him, he'll never love me the same ever again...and that's how I want it to be, just like before. It wouldn't be like that anyway. I found out that he was dating someone in another town, and that I was his cheat girlfriend that he picked up while he was visiting on vacation. I only found out about it about 2 or 3 months into the relationship. Then I waited, not saying anything, to see if he was going to brake up with her or not. He didn't and I had waited for 3 months for him to get his act together, and he wouldn't so I had no choice at that point. We dated just under 7 months, and then I had to tell him that even though I loved him, we had to seperate. He promised me that when I turned 18 he'd look me up again, but now I don't know if he will or not. He's 20 and I'm 16, so we really couldn't "be" together because it was illegal(but hey, no one can tell you who to fall in love with). So I guess this story is just me complaining about my love life, and not having the one I love anymore(he broke up with his actual girlfriend a couple weeks after I had to brake up with him...I wonder if he blamed her?). question