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what have i done i ******** up big time what have i done wrong in life i lied about myself and i lie to get out of trouble and problems i say i'm strong only to hide that i'm weak but i know who i am.........i'm still that worthless good for nothing nerdy kid in 7th grade who got pushed around........and then decided to chande himself in to a cruel selfish person.......cold collected hateful non-loving everytime i find love it hurts but there's people around saying that it will be ok i hide myself from others i show my kind stupid persona.....but inside i'm cruel......i now a days hear this voice in my dreams that he tells me my name.....and i wake up in fear of that person in the black jacket smileing at me with those red eyes sharp teeth and nails......like claws......i take a good look hoping that it's not my own self in the future.........what will i become in the future?........somebody help me...... why did i say that what the ******** is wrong with me?.........i don't know what to think anymore somebody please wake me from this nitemare!!!!!!!!!