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I learned something today. I learned that I have "depression", and it's pretty bad depression. I'm going to go see a psychiatrist, I think, 'cus I really just want it to go away. My attention span is little to nothing, I'm not eating at all, almost, and I feel really sad, angry, anxious, and nervous all at the same time. I also constantly think of killing myself. I guess these are apparent signs of "depression", at least that's what the thingamajig I looked at said. stare I can't wright this anymore, I wanna do something else now. This is really boring. God, I wish I could just die... What is life? What purpose do we all serve? Why? For what reason? I wanna die... Let me go home, home is where Steven is, where the person I love is... God, take me home. Let me go home. Home, I want to go home, please. God, now I'm crying. Crying, why do the tears keep on coming? I have nothing to cry for, but I continue to cry... God, make the pain stop, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please make it go away. Bring Amy back from the dead, we need her... She is important to us. Let her come back, please, let her come back, now, we need her, we need her, she is part of our entity. our being. We need her to be whole, to be us. Give her back. We kill you, we will kill everyone, everything. Destruction, chaos, that's what we need, that's what we will thrive on. Give us her body, her life, her soul. We need her. Kill you... kill her... kill Her... we will kill Her who gives us pain. yes... make it all go away, make the pain go away, make our hands covered in her blood, then in our blood, yes, in our blood. In our dirty, filthy, guilty, sad, evil, vile, ugly blood. Make it go away make it go away make it go away, please, if there is a God, if you are there, if I am alive, make this go away, please, I need it to go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away go away!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Lady_Esmerel · Sun Apr 03, 2005 @ 06:33am · 2 Comments |
