• I wish I mattered, but I feel like yourtoy
    I'll say I'm fine, but can you imagine what's going on inside?
    Yes, I'm spinning apart and yes it really hurts to breathe.
    But I've got to be strong, for my family
    For my friends, for everyone because that's who I am.
    I am forgiveness, the one who never takes things too hard
    And I am the one who is never angry when you break my heart
    Even though, really, every single thing you say
    Hits me harder than you could possibly know.
    Everything hurts.

    All I want is for you to understand how much I need you
    How much I want to hold you
    How much your soft red-gold hair makes my insides keen
    And how much your glorious smile lights up all of the dark places
    One day, you will break me, I know that
    Perhaps I know that better than anyone.
    It is who you are, who we are.
    I forgive, I love, I do everything for you
    And in return you hurt me, break me
    Leave me because *he* doesn't want me near you
    But right now, and forever, I will be your rock
    I will sit, stable, calm on the outside, never abandoning
    No matter what the pain or the cost.
    Why?
    Because that's who I am.