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Why is it that the father is the one person all childern love and want. I know to many fatherless homes where the mothers try their best to raise kids on their own but fail. The kids love thier mother....of crouse they do but...without that father. Seeing others with fathers....it just hurts them. Why dosn't the man that gave them life love them?

I'm a fatherless child. Sure I go to my dad's house every now and then but...he rarely comes around, here barely calls and I know...deep in my heart...he dosen't care for me or my sisters and brother. Besides my youngest sister who never really even knew him, my sister and brother accepts and admits that they hate our father with a passion. For lots of things but mostly for leaving our mother. Me....I want to hate him. I want to just keep him out of my life. But I can't....And my brother, mother and sister keep on asking me why...Why do I want to keep such a curl man in my world? And all I can say is...that he's my father. He's my dad....I can't just hate him....Thats wrong. Even if he did cause me to cry more then once. Even if he did cause me to conidser other things in my life....I cna't hate him like them....I love him to much.

I talk about my dad alot with some of my friends. But uselly just because I want to keep him here....

I don't know anymore...is it wrong to love the man who hurt you, your siblings and your mother? They all see me as a tatior....as back stabber....Maybe I am...Maybe thats why I'm hiding out here on Gaia all the time. Talking to people who has never really seen my face except for a few. At least on here...I can escape my family for a little while....Damn that sounds so stupid...and it's just another stupid excuse to block people....I'm sorry....I have to stop here for now.....

nighty night