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Not a good morning....I had a bad fight with my mom before I went out to do volentter work today....I was so anger but I kept it cool as was just boncenig off the walls...er....trees, all day. Just smileing and laughing and goofing around with people I barely knew....Sometimes I wonder about myself....I hide behind a smile that no one can ever see threw...not even those who are colest to me. Sure, they knew I was anger, they heard me say it. But....They couldn't see threw that smile, that laugh, that "happy little goofy girl." I feel like I'm the joker, with that crazy smile of pain and inasniy stuck to myface. I just wish there was someone out there that could understand me fully. And I mean fully. Not just the s**t I tell them or the way I do things. I wish someone, who probley never knew me, would just give me a hug without me asking for it. With out seeing me crying, or being over the top happy. I wish someone could just know me so well...But the only person who dose know...Who dose care forme...is in another place, and another time. I...I have lost all that I am now....So I'm just going to keep smileing....kept my sad ugly face hidden behind a mask with insane happiness over it. Can someone please read me....save me from this fallen life.......s...o....s.....
ay evol,
Erica
 LadyxGemini · Sun Apr 29, 2007 @ 12:11am · 1 Comments |
