...Everything hurts... 1/19/07...Everything hurts...
...and it's all my fault... 1/23/07.… Everything still hurts …
… why? … 1/26/07.… I'm still in so much pain …
… I hate feeling like this… how can happiness, bring so much pain? Why are my wings, always in chains? Unable to fly, my hopes and dream die. When I reach out, it just disappears, this must be what I truely fear. loneliness is my best friend, will my broken heart ... ever mend? 1/30/07 This pain just won't fade away! ... I care for him, I really do, but ... I don't know exactly what to do... I might just go against my mother and do as I please!... I want to be with him, not that he even notices. I must endure this for the time being... yet I always doubt my self ... I doubt that every thing he said was true... I've experienced too many lies from the men species already ... *sigh*... what am I doing? having doubts... is that really a bad thing?... having doubts... I have a strong feeling that everything that's been told to me was a lie, he probably doesn't even care. He'll probably find some other girl... but ... should I be happy IF he does ... the right thing to do is smile and cheer him on right ... even if I'm torn...pft! *shrugs* my hearts lost in the dark, can't break what was never found in the first place right? ... every day I wonder ...if I screamed out to him... could he hear me?... 1/31/07 Today marks the day of change. I needed to do something about this feeling.So I finally did it. But... I feel so wrong... maybe it was a mistake... no... I won't believe it...at least now... I won't have any regrets... I look at the clock... oh how i hate how time mocks me... 2/1/07 This chapter won't end...
 Vampiric_roze · Fri Jan 19, 2007 @ 02:41am · 4 Comments |
