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I don't remember what it was excatly but I thought of my ex-gf Jessie in my car and my mind was wandering. There were some times after that Sept day we became distant and a few words were exchanged, but know I think I know why. I don't hate her, she still means alot to me but one word can say it all- jealousy I was jealous/ am jealous of her. Why? Because she is truely happy. She has found her 'someone just for her' and is expecting a baby in June. Not that I want a baby right now, but despite hard times, I know she is truely happy cause she is with the one who loves her for her and she loves him becuase he is he. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am, I love Dave, but there's something missing and I don't know what it is. A part of me is still sad. Maybe its b/c there is three pieces of my soul missing... a piece to Jess, a piece to Kris, and a piece to Jennie, who I love all, but know they are not my 'someone just for me'. Please take care of taht lil piece of soul. Until then i search for what I am looking for.... somewhere I belong..... I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long. i wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along, somewhere I belong
ps, yes I heart Chobits and Linkin Park...
 Zoey Mikaela · Fri Feb 04, 2005 @ 02:27am · 1 Comments |
