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Well.... Caylie is doing bit better... which is a major plus. She ate a couple ounces on Monday night I think? I havent realy talked to Skye or Ant since... but I thought it was cool. They changed the kind of n****e on the bottle from a rubber to a plastic one, and since she was sooooo weak...... they cut the hole on the top a itte bigger.... ^^

~Rant on Roommates... ~
I have come to the conclussion that my roommates either hate me, or they just rather enjoy using me. I'll clean up the apartment and go to school. I'll come home and there's dishes in the sink, their crap a over the tables and floor... Hell.. I came home once and their was popcorn al over our floor. My roomroommate is now turning off my lamp every night, and leaving all her stuff in the middle of the floor so I walk into it... I'm trying to be nice and not turn the light back on... but -sigh- maybe I should be just as rude as her. The times that I do go to bed before her, she walks in and turns on the light, often talking on her phone, waking me up. EVERY TIME! She gets pissy with me when I get up before her in the morning too (mind you, she skips all of her classes and sleeps til 2 or 3 in the afternoon) cause I make a bit of noise rummaging around getting my things together. She wakes me every saturday morning. never fails. Her boyfriend (whom she rather enjoys danging in front of my face) or one of her friends calls her and she answers her phone in the room. When she sees me glaring at her, she's all like "Oh sorry, Did I wake you up?" in the least sncere voice possible... ><!! They all eat my snacks if I've happened to make cookies or cake. Without asking me. The two in the other room basically bow down to my roomroommate and worship her. Or so it seems. They always strike up a conversation with her. Never fails. And yet, al three of them pretty much ignore me. I can be in tears and they'll walk by not giving me a second thought. Hell... I bet if I suddenly died or got hospitalized for some reason, they'd all have a parteh.... -.-

These last months have been murder on me.... and these ast weeks have been steadily growing worse.... -.- I'm tired of trying so hard and getting nowhere... I've noticed recently I've lost track of myself.... cutting myself down before I try something.... telling myself I'm bound to fail... -sighs-

I just don't know what to do anymore... I dont think I can keep fighting these demons on my own....