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As every day goes by.
I think of him all the time.
The way he talks/
They wa he laughs.
I want to be able to lay in his arms.
but I'm kinda scared.
I have learned from the past.
Not to make anybody.
My everything.
Cause when they are gone.
Ill be left with nothing.
But something this time is diffrent.
I trust him.
And love him.
Im beggining to act diffrent.
I beleive its because of him.
Ive become more happy.
Not so depressed.
Hes changed some thing about me.
I changed the things i wear.
And what i do.
Im not as carless.
Compared to what i use to.
Ive become more loveing.
Hes changed my heart.
From concreate
Back to gold.
I want to tell him everything.
But what would he think?
I told him of my past.
I welcomed in to my world.
Now im frightened.
So I put up more walls.
Trying to make sure.
I dont fall to the ground.
He knocks them down.
One by one.
I always end up smileing.
Hoping hes the one.
I want to be in his arms.
Knowing that nothing can go wrong.
But i know i cant leive in a dream.
OS im goanna have to trust him.
And beleive in him.
i have to know.
That i can trust him.
But i dont know.
How things will turn out.
So he has to know.
Even though.
I miss him so.
I love him to death.
Until i can figure out.
Whats going on.
In my head.
We'll both have to wait.
Until he time.
I have my head on straight.