Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Can someone who was your best friend before, forever and always be your best friend?
No matter who or what seperates the two?
Will one friend go behind their mother's back and still talk to the person? Would that be a true friend? Or will they hide behind her and listen to her every word, acting like a slave dragged around on a leash?
I might have just lost the most best friend in the world, a 'perfect' friend, but...
What if she listens to her mother and never speaks to me agian?
I don't know what I did wrong.
I don't know why her mother got mad because I untucked her shirt, because it did look better that way...And my best friend didn't like them tucked in.
I don't know what to do.
What if she never is allowed to speak or even look at me again?
Has anyone felt what it was like to lose such a good friend, someone you could count on, someone that you knew was there for you no matter what? Someone you could trust? Someone who you loved like a sister or brother, even tohugh they weren't biologically or by marriage your brother or sister?
It's painful, isn't it? To feel as if your whole world has come crashing down on you, and everything is lost, to never be found agian, and if it has, it's broken into a thousand pieces, and everytime you try to pick them up and put them back together, they burn, sting, and pierce your skin?
I feel as if every word I type right now, it's like the little pieces of glass and sinking deeper and deeper into my hands..

Lilly, gomen nasai..