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every1 aroumd me puts me down, as in family, now i cant even get away from it on the gaia. i would rather b alone then hurt anyone, so i push ppl away so they can b happy. lonelyness is the worst feeling in the world. its funny how the a*****e only shows up wen im down, i wonder if its one of my friends, or exfriends, well not any impotant ex friends im sure, i know 4 a fact they wouldnt do that. i just have to realize if im alone, i wont hurt anyone, so it really is the best thing, its the right thing 2 do. tho crying maybe one day someone will rescue me from me and my family. im trying to improve myself but everytime i get close 2 the top of the hole im in i fall back down and i take out my anger on the ppl i love the most (not catrina) i hope tommorow will b a betterday. i just need to think of the possitives in my life, which is only cat now....tho she is such a great daughter, she counts to 15 already. i love her so much, but i still love another.....but its over and done with and he can have a nice happy life without me ruining it anymore...well im going 2 go cry myself 2 sleep like the last few nights,,,,im nt crazy, im a good person with a good heart, if the s**t in my past never happened...if bad things i 4got would stop poping into my head.....i know i would be a great friend, i know i would.... please 4give me forgive ne, i just cause more pain then happiness,,,,
 lil_qt_cat1 · Wed Sep 13, 2006 @ 07:17am · 0 Comments |
