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ok, i finnaly got rid of him, got him to hate me, its the best for me, im obviously nothing to him, so had to push him away, it was alot easier then it would have been when we were close but obviously he was just stringing me on and kinda knew i was, i just wouldnt let myself c the negative like ive done so many times b4. abuse is abuse any rype. and at least i know i wasnt that important 2 him to have just gotten rid of me so easily. its sad, but least i can escape the mind games, the mixed messages, least real friends wouldnt abandone me so easily, he never cared how i was. i lost myself when he broke my heart and i held on for dear life, but im smarter now, i know when ive been screwed over, sent him 2 of my fav books one i got for christmas from debbie when she was in japan, but thats fine, i lose important things when im in a messed up situation, spent more then 300 bux on him, yea, i made a big mistake. i need to focus on the possible, not the two faced answers ive been getting. im relieved, i mean he never took his time on me, i wasnt any1 2 him, not really. cant wait until one day he is a bad memory, just like all the other guys who have used and destroyed my heart. yay me, i did the right thing.
 lil_qt_cat1 · Tue Sep 12, 2006 @ 04:53am · 0 Comments |
