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So, i'm not REALLY liking school..well, i can't say that cuz i LOVE school but it's just i don't know. I relaly do not like fourth hour though. Jason is nice to me sometimes bu tthen theres other times where he just treats me like s**t and that really hurts my feelings. I don't really like being around him but it's not like i can do anything about it. He doesn't listen to anyone but himself and HIS oppinions, i've actually noticed that he can be very selfish alot of the time. Catlain isn't bothering me as much and Mary and Catlain are getting along alot better. I'm so afraid that mom is going to tell me to get off and yell at me and i HATE it when people yell at me...i've had enough of that s**t. I had such a scary dream last night. I was small and back in my old house when we lived with brian and i walked into the living room and he was thorwing dishes and stuff at mommy. It was soOo scary.
I remember when mom was doing the dishes and Brian came in. He was looking for the keys and he asked her but mom didn't know where they were and then he kept asking her. He kept getting more angry especially when she told him that they were on the dmantle and he just wasn't looking hard enough. His face went red and he stormed up to her and said she was wrong and starting screaming at her. "Where are the ******** keys, where are the ******** keys!!!?" He grabbed her by the hair and yanked her around and through her around and punched her and it got so bad that me and David ran into our room and hid under my bed crying and trying to block out all the sceaming and yelping. God, i could NEVER talk to anyone about this stuff, it scvars me so bad. I HATE fights and i HATE it when mom snd Jerry fight cuz i'm afraid that he'll hurt her...even though i know he loves her so much.