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A friend once asked me "How are you anyway?" on my profile. I told her. I loaded some of my problems on her. I could have written more but I found the power to slap myself before I could continue. My question is....why and I so unhappy? I'm craving excitment and when I get it I still know that once it's over it's back to "Oh is a brab-a-ful life!" I've went to one of my other friends before for advice on this but Some how it didn't help me much. It's like my life is old and tierd. It's like when you find a new song you really like but after listening to it consently it gets old. I think my life got a little old a long time ago. but I can't seem to find a new song to listen to. And when I do, it gets a skratch on it or it breaks. I know nobody can be happy every day, unless they're on drugs or somthing but you are suposed to at least feel content. I know we all have our bad days but I feel bad 365 days a year, and it's been like that for 3 years. What do I do? Don't tell me to run to my parents cause I gave up on that a long time ago. Help? I don't know the answer to my situation. You'd think after 2 years of going to a theripst make things a little better but that tretment was like cheap nail polish. It chipped off and hour after applying it. Are people suposed to be like this? And I know I'm a women and this might be a cause of growing up or womenly issues but it's not! It's as if I'm in a life rut! Normally I'm a person who can give herself advice but when ever I try to it's like my brain says "NO WAY!" it's like I have a road block in my head when I try to help myself...it's as if the train has run out of track.

Anna