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mood: confused/happy
anime:none 0,0...TnT
Song: "All the things she said" Tatu

Ehhh...I feel so bad for no reason! I feel like getting my heart out and throughing it at the wall!!! AHHHH!!! I can't stand this pain...I didn't do anything bad so why am I in pain? Is it because of what she was telling me? Or was it because I hurt a person I loved...and now he is gone and moved on and I thought I did too...but..AHHHHH!!! I can't stand this s**t! I must find away out...but I just can't! My vampire crush turned into my once love...and I destoried him and he went out of my life...while I went to my love now...but...but..but..AHHHH!!! I can't stand this...I must save myself..somehow...with out her help I am sure I can at least make myself better...but how? So many things she told me before she left and now it is killing me...I want it all back! I want my vampire crush/ love and my beloved soul back...but I can't always get what I want..after all it's life...

-Vicky
I want Illya back...before she is put to rest...in my heart..forever...

My only deathwish is to be with you,
I want you in my coffin,
dead or alive,
I want you there
holding my hand to the gates of the afterlife
I want you there, with your smile, your grace, even your ways of telling me,
it's okay...I WANT YOU!
Bury me without you in my coffin and I will never make it to the gate,
cuz I will be too deadly for the afterlife...without you!
After all death is a happy ending in my journal...
but without you it is just a begining to a hurtful story,
that goes on forever...