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What i realized today is that there are two choices i can take. better, the path of happiness and a chance to be with everyone i know and love dearly, or the worse, the path of agony and regrets from every action i took. i dono which path to take so i'm goin along the middle tryin to decide which one is the best for me. It seems like i can't make a difference in the world no matter how hard i try. if i could change the world i would change it to where there would be no rape in this world or the next. i would fight for those who need to be saved from rape. i'll die fighting those who do rape. if i could change the world i would do that one thing. if i could do that do you think i would be a better person or a worse person. if you could change the world what would it be and would it be for better or worse?

you know its kinda ironic but i think i piss ppl off too much. that or annoy the ******** out of them with my yapping and i just think i talk to much. if i were to stop yapping and talking less would i be a better person or a worse person. i dono these paths are very confusing and its hard to figure out which one i take because everyone else sees me differently. I BET IF I WERE TO DIE TONIGHT NONE OF YALL WOULD MISS ME!!! well out of my friends and close friends anyways. out all this thinking i think i need to be alone v_V. maybe then i'll find out what i truely seek. but who knows rigth maybe i'll find it in the ppl i talk to and from what ppl tell me. i just don't c it at all. maybe i just deny the fact that its there and can't accept the facts. all i can say is that i'm truely confused gonk question maybe the world would be a better place without me in it.......