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How do you tell someone that as much as you like or love them, you never want see them, touch them, or talk to them in person? I don't know...... I told Xeno i'd tag along with him on his trip to japan since i'd planned on going anyways, told ginzo we'd try again when i was 18 and....less problematic, said i'd board with logan when i moved out. HOW THE HELL??? how could i do things like that? I can't even look at a guy! Damn. BLOODY ******** HELL DAMMIT! i'm crying again. What a pathetic, vaccuous, helpless, childish, sinful piece of crap i am.
I really hate this feeling. This feeling of blindly fumbling after old longings no matter how lost you get, knowing that no matter what happens, you're totally helpless to change it or deal with it.
 BSPBleach · Fri Jan 27, 2012 @ 06:57am · 0 Comments |
