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Is it that I don't trust you? Or is it that I don't trust people with you?
What happened to me when I met you...? I have no idea, I lost sight of who I was, which I guess means it wasn't me to begin with...but what now? Who am I now?
I can like anyone pretty easily, but it takes something seriously f**cked up to make me not like you this much stressed ...I don't know what kind of person she is, I don't really care to know anymore...I feel double crossed, this whole time I've been dragging myself through the mud because I felt like it was all my fault...it wasn't I've learned that much. Fall outs take two people...lacking trust in one another I guess would be the first fall...how we got this far only to fall apart like this I don't really know but deep down I don't want to fall apart, I want to fix it I want to fix everything and just try to forget...just let it all fade away and disappear like all my other bad memories....can't this be one of them? Can't she just become one of those bad memories? Can I stop fearing that I'm going to lose you? Can I just let go of this fear and distrust of her and move on?
You tell me....
Me or her?