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Lost and confused is pretty much all I'll ever be it seems. I make alot of these type of entries, asking questions, but never seeming to get any answers... oh well I guess. The way i ask the questions they can be rhetorical I suppose, so I guess its my own fault, eh?

Work has been interesting... we had an assistant manager (another one -groan-) walk out on us on tuesday. Apparently the man she worked so hard to get rid of in October, but then asked back not too long thereafter, is drinking again. Alot. And expecting her to support them. Again. Drinking up the saving for the apartment. Again. -sigh- Well, Tuesday we're guessing they got in an arguement over the phone. Cause a little while later, she was condensing the toy wall down to make room for more toys, and Ana, our sole stocker now, remarked that maybe Jackie was condensing the wall too far? Considering that we are going to get a brand new section in a week of dollar-plus merchandise. Well, Jackie blew up. Yelled at Ana out on the floor, stormed into the back, grabbed her stuff, and stormed out. Today she came in today and turned in her keys and everything, though we were expecting her to come in acting like nothing at all had happened. Well, she's gone now, but that day, we almost lost Ana too. And Ana is a sweetheart!! She came to the back and told my mom that she had to go, quit, etc, cause she couldnt take it anymore. thankfully my mom got christina and they caught her before she left, and convinced her that she is MUCH more valuable to us than Jackie is, and frankly its true. So yeah. Drama Drama. -sigh- i can see the extra shifts already.

As a couple of you know, I am an orange belt in Tae Kwon Doe right now (getting ready to graduate to a Yellow next week! :squee: ), but I am taking a class for Green belts to Purples!! Oo... scary! I already learned the pattern that the greens are required to know to graduate to Blue.... so I have no idea whats gonna happen graduation day.... lol.


Anyways... on to the reflection part!! lol

I know its a month late, but I feel I need to put down in writing the major events in 2005. Which, frankly, isnt that much. lol. Maybe even put some of my own goals down here too.

January brought me back to a new semester at school. I was still new, and learning my way around and things like that. Thankfully, Autumn and Marie were up there to help me out ^^ and I think I had fun while I was there for the time that I wasnt studying/whatever. Had 3 new roommates, and ... well... now I am more than glad that they are gone!!

February nothing really happened... cept a close friend made me feel special on Valentines... and for that I am really grateful... I had never had that feeling before... it was strange and welcome at the same time. ^^

March there was nothing. zilch nada.

April was interesting... to say the least... lost my third true boyfriend that month... which was really hard on me... but now... looking back.... I'm glad for the time we had together.... and I'm glad that we are still friends... ^^

May was me 19th birthday, and Darion and Cajun came out to help me celebrate my first birthday on my own... ^^ lotsa people made it special... and I think it was honestly one of the best birthdays that I had ever had. Ant and Sky also got married... ^^ heart

June was zilch as was July, unless you count my first "visit" to a shrink.... :rolls eyes:

August, I was ready to love again... and though now we are apart... I still will have it engraved upon my memory and my heart... August 30th we opened Dollar Crazy's doors. ^^ (and now there are only ... 4 completely orginal employees.... )

September passed with hurricanes one after the other.... and in October Darion came out and we had a blast of a weekend together...

November we met my brothers fiance and in December he was married... and baby Evelyn Marie Moore was born!! <3<3<3

Crazy year... I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder too.. and been coping with that... filling out workbooks, etc, and getting help from my friends.... ^^ y'all know who you are... heart .... so crazy... yet good things arouse from the trials...





To all my friends: I love you all, and am truly grateful for you being there for me... many, if not all of you, had a hand in pulling me through the dark marshes this past year has brought me. You put up with me when I was completely overwhelmed, offered shoulders when I couldnt hide the rivers behind a mask anymore, and laughed with me (or at me, given the circumstances) when things were looking up. And not to mention... you probably just read the entire thing I just wrote. You guys give me the hope that I need to put up with the things that life throws at me unexpectedly. I love you all, and I mean it too.


In the coming year, I am planning on sending my first (and hopefully not last) novel into publishers after some careful rewrites, and edits. By this time next year, I hope to see my book on shelves. And in the coming year, I am seriously planning on taking a big major trip to come out and see you all. Even those of you in other parts of the world if I can afford it.





I shan't bore you any longer. One quote and I wont make you read anymore:



"Life is a series of lessons that must be lived to be understood" -Ralph Waldo Emmerson