I want him to hate me.
I never thought i'd work so hard to make somebody hate me. But he has the patience of a god. <<;
Well not really, i've read the bible... he has the patience of a rock. Yeah that. Nothing i do can phase him, and i've done everything.
He might think me crazy for what i do but i do have a reason for this. He's leaving and i don't ever wanna see him again. Ever. I'll miss him, but hopefully time will erase him from my past.
I mean like he's going into the Marines so that means he'll be gone for a long time and when his training is over he'll visit for like a week. Then he'll leave again, and for longer. If i'm freaking out this much over his departure in a few months i wont be able to handle him just showing up and leaving within a few days. I'd rather hear that he got through training and that he's well on his way. And then i don't want to hear any more. I'll be fine knowing he's doing well. And i know he will.
I want him to hate me so that he never gets the idea of visiting me ever again. I mean our time has been fun and i love him for that but he's grown up and he has to throw away childish things. I always told him i wasn't good for his image. That and i'm a b***h. D; He's never going to need me for that. He has his own, and yeah that's another reason why i don't ever want to be part of his life ever again.
I don't want to be near her in any way or form. :/
Maybe the b***h will cool down once i stop being around him. I just hope her karma hits her in the face. And i can do that, it's just the matter of actually telling her. And i would, 'cept it'd really hurt him. Don't really care for the b***h obviously, but for him i think i'll have to make something up.
But GOD i'd love to make her freak out. :]
I know i'm a b***h, but only to people who are rude to me, and she went out of her way and treated me like i was dirt. She has it coming. |:
How do you make a boy hate you though? This would fix all the other problems and make it easy. I threatened to ruin his life and he knows full well i could. And he just smiled at me and said he couldn't do anything about it.
Man i hate him.
I think the only way i can make him hate me is by me hating him. But you can't stay angry at a friend for long.
The best i can do is fake a really long hissy fit until he leaves and hope i get used to not talking to him. And i am going to have to do that. Start cool and aloof until i get used to being without him, then maybe if he tries to get close get angry at him, he always backed off until i cooled down. But i'm not planning on cooling down. The longer he thinks i'm angry the better,
Here's farewell to a good friend who stuck with me through thick and thin.
 Nirrina · Fri Jan 29, 2010 @ 03:53am · 0 Comments |
