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You tell me that you care. That I'm important and that you love me. I fell for all those lies. You never really cared nor have you ever even thought of my feelings. I try to be be there when your alone and sad. To cheer you up and make you laugh, but you treat me like I'm worthless. You never really cared have you. Am I some worthless trash to be used and then be tossed to the side. Am I really that worthless to you. I feel as if you never really cared and you only make me feel worse. You say things that make me feel like I've done nothing to help you. When I would drop all my feelings and emotions just to help you feel better. Then you go around and saying about things that aren't even true. That only make me feel worse about myself. Why do you hate me? Why do you treat me like this? Should I just disappear so that I don't bother you no more. But if do that you freak out and tell me your sorry. That you never meant to hurt me like this. You tell me more lies that in the end only hurt me more. The more I say things like this the more it hurts you. But I don't want to hurt you. But maybe if you read this you'll understand what you put me through. I wish you love, joy and happiness. I hope for all the things that make you whole again. While I'll just go hide in the Darkest place in my heart and disappear.....don't even try and stop me. It was my fault for allowing everyone I know to get close to me. I just want this pain to stop.......
.......Mom why can't you love me as I am?
 Shadowfeather_Alchemist · Fri Jan 15, 2010 @ 01:30am · 1 Comments |
