November 4, 2009 Wednesday 9:26 PM
Oh, Sennyo...
I messed up again. At the youth-group thing tonight, I was somewhat joyed to be with my friends, mostly it being RB, Victory, and myself and then at the other times it just being Victory and me. But, I had asked Victory and Michelle near the end that, if I asked Den Ruts for a hug, would he let me?. They both said yes. But, when he exited through the front doors, I just lost my nerve. It's not that he was walking too fast or anything. I just lost it.
Today was okay. I had forgotten to write Veil that letter I had been planning to write and give to her, so I wrote it on the bus. More or less apologizing for if I didn't approve of her relationship (whatever kind it may be) with M-kun. She wrote back that she was really thankful for the letter and it meant a lot to her and that she understood what it was like to not be able to express one's feelings and etc. while under drugs (as I was apologizing for for my behaviour). My ice-cream ring fell apart. I do still have the pieces though.
At the youth-group thing, RB was telling us about her past. How and what her 'escape' is. Her aspirations. We were in the women's locker room and then we left. I asked to give her a hug because I was proud of her, and she complied.
Pause; 10:07 PM
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