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well ive come back to rant on more on how i feel, well life truly sucks for me at a new school. i wish everything was back to how i remembered with my friends.u.u but i know perfictly on how it shall be i am one who wants to be loved even though i am at home i feel as though it is not enough to make me truly happy to know that others outside of my family care is what i think i really want. to know i was and am truly cared for will help me feel better about my life. im not goth nor preppy im just one of those ppl how want to be known in life to be acknolage for what we did in life how did we change there life for the better. somtimes i wish i never isolate myself others but im afraid of what might happen so i do what i do, and stay away from many ppl who could help me for what i yern for, as a child i never had that experiace i was the oddball the one ppl would stay away from because i was different i did things. i had little freinds growing up but out of those friends only a smaller few were true friends who stuck by me, i really care and for what they did i stuck by them trying not to lose tuch so that we may be freinds forever, i really hope this doesnt sound suisidal im trying not to make it sound that way even though i cry typing this, letting all that i held inside of me out, it truly sadens me to know that a good friend of mine is making bad choices no matter how i hard try to stop them i only feel like im pushing them away and loseing someone i care deeply about. i wanna stop here before i cry a river saying too much, well ja.
Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 7:06 am