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What am I doing?
The depression is eating me alive, and it seems that everything I try to do is of no use...
Last night I felt so weird...my mind wasn't what it was supposed to be, and I am trying not to remember what happened...some of it I forgot, but I know I was acting weird last night.
But worst of all, I think my love is losing his grip.
He tells me he isn't, but he may well be. I know he loves me, and I love him...so much...I would do anything for him.
Darling, if you read this, I love you so much and I would do anything for you that was within my power to do. I would take the bullet for you any day, and would help you live. I know I may sound crazy, but it's just the way I am now...
But, you are so patient, darling. You put up with it and just kinda...you know...help me through. There are times I wonder if you just tune me out like I ask you to sometimes. Thank you if you have.
Most of all, thank you for not giving up on me. I know I have unintentionally tried your patience, and you have staid by me. I think that is what true love is.
I thought you would have given up long ago, but you haven't. And that's what I love about you most. You never give up, and you haven't lost faith in my ablities.

I love you so very much and I never want to let you go no matter what...
I mean that with every ounce of me.
I love you, and always will...

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For those of you just reading this, remember: IT IS ALL CRAP!!